The Good the bad and the better!


Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, BUT we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;  perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Funny how this particular passage of scripture brings me back to a conversation back in college at a time when I was far from living any sort of faith and at that time really questioning all that I had been taught concerning Christ or anything really affiliated with the ‘Church.’ If I remember correctly it was in the study of psychology and we were discussing people’s reactions to uncontrolled circumstances. One the main topics brought into this discussion was something I dwelled for years. You see this young man made a statement claiming all Christians are fake he backed up his argument with case and point discussion. He claimed if Christians saw a car accident on social media (Please keep in mind this was when only Facebook and My Space were social outlets of the time LOL) and no one was hurt many of the responses would be ‘Thank-the Lord no one was hurt or injured’ praise God all are safe, ETC;  but if by chance someone was hurt badly or even killed you would only see those same Christians posting things more like ‘so sorry’ ‘Praying for you.’ The student concluded if they really believed in the God they should’ve been mad at God for letting something happen. Why should he be thanked when things go right and only to pray when things went wrong? I would be lying to say I didn’t ponder this discussion for many years because I did! Because I felt he had made a valid point. Did his theory point out the flaws in Christianity and reasonably question its authenticity?

I think about this young man and wish I could have this discussion again with him. On the surface maybe, he was right in a situation or circumstance it might be proper to ‘Thank the Lord when someone or something was saved and at the same time in our society it would be proper to give condolences to those who may be suffering a loss. But if if he would’ve had the opportunity to interact with a true believer I think that he would’ve been able to see that his points were invalid on so many levels.

You see as Christians we can boast about our faith!!! Me personally, I am excited to say with great confidence that through this experience I am not afraid of death or where I will spend eternity. I can boast in HIM… But here on this earth Paul further instructs us that we must also give God glory in our sufferings because suffering produces, perseverance, perseverance, character, and character hope! God does not say we will not suffer here on earth, but when we suffer it will grow and strengthen us into whom God has called us to be. Not to blame the Almighty, but to except his plan and purpose is far more reaching than any of us could ever imagine!

I preluded my journey update with this little reflection more for myself than any one else. You see this update could have turned very depressing quickly! The days following Chemo were very rough Days 2 and 3 in particular. Waking up and being hit by the physical and emotional walls seemed inconceivable! I have never felt my body so fatigued that I could not tend to my family’s needs as well as even my own was more than humbling than I could take! I began to let fear take over angry asking God the why, my newborn, the rest of my family why why why were we all being made to go through this?  working myself up to telling Tim I was refusing to go back to chemotherapy to be poked and prodded to only feel like I was an elderly woman in a young woman’s body. Still waiting for the dreaded moment my hair begins falling I wouldn’t even brush my hair, so I wouldn’t see any come out! And this was just scratching the surface to my hissy fit! I felt awful on so many levels!!!

This is humbling to even write! I do feel most of the time I am upbeat person with a lot to be positive about, but these two days I STRUGGLED!!!! But I am so thankful I serve a faithful God full of Grace and Mercy He knew I would have rough days, angry days, blaming days, complaining days, and many more days to come 😊 I was not even sure how I would honestly be able to blog about these days!

Thank goodness His mercies are new vey morning! Today I awoke and had slowly gained some of my strength back, the tummy aches have receded and overall had a decent restful day. Tim and I were watching a podcast from home since I didn’t quite feel up to leaving house just yet, but the pastor spoke on 1 Peter 5:8-10 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while the God of all Grace who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.

You see we are all going to suffer maybe not the same ways, but clearly in this life we are; and; or will suffer. God is not a condemning God, but an encouraging one. That even when we have the bad days He is there, and he holds us through them. But we cannot blame him for the bad situations or circumstances that doesn’t make us fake. We believe him THROUGH the situations and circumstances.

2 thoughts on “The Good the bad and the better!

  1. Thanks for sharing your heart and experiences you are going through. I also try to keep the perspective that earth is not our home and our time here is like a puff of smoke. God is always preparing us for our heavenly home no matter if it is many years until we get there. Our time here is just a portal where we choose where we will spend eternity.


  2. Just finished praying for you earlier. It’s good to know days 2&3 were the worst. Will make sure to be praying and interceding more on these days. Believing for healing and a shorter round of chemo than they thought! Hugs to you sweetie!


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